My new life, new.

Okay, I'll used english in this post cause I'm comfortable with it. So, enjoy.
Look! I won't see my past post okay, from now, I promise I'll never my past post, my past message, my past text or something else about my past. You know thats hurts?
It's really hurt me even he fine with it. and I dont know why I should think most about him even I've realize he already leaves me at all. and somebody told me "Hey, don't waste your time to remember what make you fragile, just prove that you amazing!" I answer, "what do you mean" he answer, "means, just prove yo someone you loved but him already leaving you, that you are not fragile woman, you tough enough, prove that you more sucsessfull than someone even hurting you and looks you like a waste, they'll be regrets, trust me. All that will happen if you want diligently with your studied and keep study.
GOSH! Thought I've new power, heal my broken spirit "bit" but thats great.

I'm isn't I weak, I'm tough

Just shared, everything different rightnow.
I'm not I'm; weak I stronng enough. Time help me grow up
If yesterday is day where I spend a lot my time to seen about past, regret about past, hope all about past without seen my future tommorow.
Well, that excatly yes I am. I did. But now everything is fine.
There is no words can I say, everything needs time. I realize that
Can't believe he leaves me here, lonely. Really, figure out thats real haooened
I can't do anything, I can't beging him to come back, I can't beging hi to love me again, be mine, tell him about my past. I can't. But that's all is I already thinking all this time
I don't knpw the reason rightnow. complicated. strange to explain
Don't ask about my feeling when him leaves me rightnow. Just don't
Suppose he understand with this all, maybe... I don't know so strange
I cant tell anything rightnow.
With him, its hurtly slowly. Without him, its really kills me.
Maybe he had an girl outside, hope that so. Hope that he'll happy
Love is not about being your mine, while its difficults to feel for anyone had it
Love is about balance, seen our someone we loved looks ha[[y even without us
I just need a lot times to forget you, even you forget me easily. ts fine.......... 

Okay, feel so suck heard any romance songs. any questions came rightnow.
- Why you don't bring your phone to school?
- Why you delete all your songs in your phone?
- Why you delete all picture in your phone?
- Why you wont seem romance move, anymore?
- Why you become so strange? 
- Why you being easy to get sickness and your face so pale
You want knowing the answer, right. Because I won't remember anything, too painfull.
I feel so strange see anything about" relationship " seriously. and I dont know why
Suppose he understand it, but.... just dont. I wont waste my time to cry, again. Enough
The thing make me upset are, he leaving me. Such a.... I dont know I wont remember anything, really I wont. Too sick. But what can I do rightnow? NOTHING
I dont know must eaten how long time toforget him from my mind, I feel so envy with other girls, after breaking up with their boy's has easily found others. But me? I can't get near with other boys, Freak. Ya, I did. But its me, weird. Nothing anybody here, pain....